I went on a diet for the first time in 1989, when I was 10. A fat friend of mine had lost a ton of weight and looked great. My mom noticed that I was growing tall and rather wide so we talked. I wanted to go to the same doctor because I wanted to look thinner too. I was getting attention at school for being tall, for being chubby, for being different (which would later be known as being gay). Kids are awfully cruel creatures...

Anyway, this event in 1989 set my future. I have been dealing with weight issues since I was 10. I am now 30 and I am tired of it. I've done the borderline anorexia thing, Weight Watchers points, Brazilian points, pills, gym, I AM OVER IT!

Yet, I cannot give up for many obvious reasons... my health! And my back health too... On a side note, I went to an orthopedist almost 3 years ago after a major back crisis. He told me I had to loose weight and workout to strengthen my back and ab muscles. Can you guess if, after 3 years, I have lost any weight? I'm actually sad to admit it that I've gained like 15-20 pounds!!

But anyway, I am tired of being overweight and I'm tired of having back problems. I have to start doing something and something serious. Now I have to log off and not finish my thoughts because I'm in pain...